School had started for 1 week already however, I am already feeling reluctant to attend school. I'm feeling stress for many reasons, too many until I find myself unable to cope with them.

Seriously, I don't understand why does the school have to implement such changes to SOH when I am in my crucial year. Time for breakout 2 or in fact, study period 2 now is shorten to only 1 hour and 45 minutes. Factoring some delay due to class discussion and lunch break, how much time are we really left with in order to produce our work.

Time = money, yes I know, but I feel that learning did not really take place so much for me anymore because all we need to do is to apply theories which now, we don't really need to research and understand them anymore. These theories are giving to us before study period.

Grading based on team's presentation. Is this really necessary? What I feel is that if we do not team with the good ones, chances for us to get an A is really slim. Free loaders will definitely be happy in this case before if the rest do well, their starting grade will be at least a B and the most they will be mark down by only 1 grade.

Evaluation is another thing. Yes, I do understand that facilitators will not be able to see everything happening in class but by making the face that getting A is so tough, will people backstab through evaluation?

The school always say that we need to look at holistic view to grade however, I feel no matter what it is, subjectivity is bound to take place.

Frankly speaking, I really wish to grow up faster, leave school and do things which I want to do. I want to have time to relax, enjoy and be happy of course. I want to throw away all the responsibilities that I am holding. I want to be free, I WANT TO BREAK FREE.

there are dreams i want to fulfil, you all hold the keys to opening the doors for me.

Last week of school holiday but doesn't seem like holiday to me anymore.
Meetings and meetings for this week and seriously, I don't want school to start. I guess, I will be slacking for my final year because I find myself losing motivation.

Alot of what if keeps flashing in my mind and making my really vex. Shall not be bothered by this for now.

Finally, I can remove the triangle plate in the car however, maybe won't be driving that car anymore. I hope I lose my bet to Alan! I don't mind treating him a meal + drink! HAHA!

Had been thinking and sometimes, I find myself being really a loser. I don't know why I am feeling this but ya, this is how I feel. There are many things which I want to do them good however, somehow they just ended up not to how I expect it to be.

Maybe I am asking too much, expecting too much, I don't know. What I know is this is doing no good to me because I can really get pissed off with myself when things fail. See, I'm a loser!

Anyway, had been working with love, helping my parent with work this month. We are really hardworking. Earned quite a fair bit and of course, I enjoyed myself working with love. This is one special way we have our datings.

Congrats love for winning big money from mahjong last week. YAY. Extra pocket money!